Before writing this 16th challenge – something that you miss, I was set into pushing through with missing school and studying. But maybe, it was wrong for me to rewatch The Fault in Our Stars for the nth time before doing so because it made me miss something else.

This is for the 30-day writing challenge I’m currently doing.

I’ll probably come off as a hopeless romantic, but trust me, that’s the last thing I want you to think of me. To be honest, maybe, just maybe, I just kind of miss being loved. Just miss.. I’m not even hoping for anything more than a personal blog entry.

The Fault in Our Stars is one of the two books I fell in love with. (The other one is Eleanor & Park which I only finished reading yesterday)


“I’m a grenade and at some point I’m going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties, okay?” – Hazel, The Fault in Our Stars

Sometimes, I really feel like I’m the same as Hazel, people sometimes think I’m a great person (Ha! Imagine that) I mean like, after they already mark me with the obvious mataray first impression, but I think, I’m just a disaster waiting to happen. I’m a mess. But despite all that grenade reference, I’d like to think that someone out there is capable of defusing me, besides, maybe, myself.

PS. I told myself, that if I were to be in the same condition as them – waiting to die – I’ll be wanting to hear eulogies for me too.